bleeding

Hello! This is my first pregnancy, and only me and my partner know. I’m around 5 months palang and just found out about it last week after testing positive on 2 PTs. Although we’re already at the right age naman, I just started my first corporate job, and my sister is still young. Wala na rin kaming parents, and while my grandmother is taking care of my sister naman, even though hindi naman ako yung buong sumasagot financially, I still prioritize them more than anything. And honestly, it’s just really not a good timing since our mom just died a few months ago.

So with all that, my partner agreed to support whatever I decide because he understands my role in the family and that it’s my body, so it should be my choice. Honestly, kung hindi ganito kahirap sa Pilipinas, I might consider keeping it. But the reality of raising a kid in this world right now is just really, really hard and scary.

Marami-rami na rin akong nabasa dito, and nakakatakot especially yung girls who had successful MA pero still went through a lot because of possible sepsis. I’m also considering Fredli para lang hindi ako masyadong mag-overthink, but aside from the money, it’s really the time and process that you need to put into it, lalo na may work kami both ng partner ko.

As for symptoms, sobrang sore ng breasts ko, and grabe yung nausea ko to the point na natutulog ako from 6 PM to 5 AM dahil umiikot talaga paningin ko. Everything I eat, sinusuka ko talaga, no joke. Kahit makakita lang ako ng food, nasusuka na ako, even on TikTok lang. Plus, sobrang stressed din ako sa work right now.

Then yesterday, when I was about to pee, nagulat ako because may dugo na brownish sa underwear ko. I checked inside with my finger and meron din. Honestly, I didn’t know what to do. My boyfriend panicked more than I did, so nainis lang ako and hindi na kami nagpa-ER. Until now, chineck ko ulit and may dugo pa rin. Brownish siya, parang may manipis na tissue-like na kasama. Huhu.

I’m not feeling any period-like cramps naman, pero from time to time parang may kurot sa left side or parang may naka-tuon lang na feeling, and that’s it. It’s not painful naman, but it doesn’t feel normal either and medyo uncomfortable siya in a way.

Am I having a miscarriage na ba, or spotting lang kaya? Could it also be from the force of frequent vomiting?

Nag-PT rin ako kaninang umaga kasi baka mamaya false positive lang yung mga nauna and baka eme-eme ko lang to. But both tests were still positive.