Dilemma

Hey guys

So I need advice. I live at home. My dad and I have been having a lot of friction since he decided to retire himself with no plan. He left us in a lot of debt and no support. We have debt everywhere, which was nothing new bc even the job he had was unstable for several years.

He has been primarily at home now for 4 years. He is also extremely abusive, especially to my mum, so even just that made me lose all the respect I had for him.

Anyway, I got a job that also doesn't pay well, bt at least I have regular pay. It's so small, I pay for our monthly food debt, and it's depleted . For context, we are 7 in total. I provide almost the majority with my sisters chipping in kidogo kidogo here and there.

The dilemma is that after all this, they still want to give me a curfew. I have no autonomy. I can't sleep over once in a while, even. My bf manages a restaurant he goes up to night shift, so with our schedules , the only time we can see each other is if I sleep over.

Being told by my dad that I'm being disrespectful to him, which lands so flat to me bc I can barely give a shit. I feed him and his family.

I only feel bad for my mum since she gets the brunt of it, but I don't like being home, and I feel like I can't breathe there.