Anxious feeling and fear while manifesting??

Okay I genuinely need advice because I feel like I’m losing my mind over this whole situation 😭

Me and this guy had a fallout months ago and stopped talking for a really long time. Then recently before our final exams we somehow started talking again. The first few days were actually good and I thought maybe things were finally getting better, but I still had a lot of hurt from the past.

Eventually I brought it up because I wanted clarity and honestly just wanted us to clear the air and have a fresh start. But he completely switched moods, got frustrated, said he doesn’t want meaningless arguments in his life and basically chose to walk away again.

The thing that’s messing with my head the most is that he keeps calling me his “friend” and I genuinely don’t wanna be just friends with him 😭

And now I can’t stop thinking about everything that happened.

Like logically I understand the whole “don’t focus on the old story” thing, but emotionally it still affects me so much. I keep replaying everything in my head and thinking about how he didn’t even try to stay and fix things with me.

And I think the biggest thing making me anxious is that college is basically ending now. During the whole year we barely talked even though we were literally in the same college, so now my brain keeps going “if nothing really happened when we used to see each other almost every day then how will anything happen once college is over?”

That thought genuinely scares me so bad.

I’m also anxious about seeing him again before college fully ends because last time it was me who ignored him, but this time I was the one trying to fix things and he still walked away so now I just feel embarrassed and weird about it.

The thing is I do believe manifestation works because I’ve manifested multiple things before and even still am. But with this situation I feel sooo emotionally attached and affected by the old story. Maybe because this whole thing happened literally just a week ago so it still feels fresh and I keep falling back into it emotionally.

I’m trying to calm myself down and not spiral over circumstances but I still get this empty anxious feeling, especially after waking up.

So yeah if anyone has gotten past being stuck on the old story pls tell me HOW 😭 how do you stop spiraling over circumstances and time when everything feels so final?