Sorry im to stupid for it

Im not acting anything happened love.....

I wrote some shit down and the bid drama happened!

Im tired people are making fun or blame me for the feeligs i have for you......

Im destroyed, i dont have energy, im in a loop of nonsense of exintence because of you!

Im waiting and waiting and waiting and nothing is changing.... Why the fuck is it such a big deal to do something kind and sweet for me like i did?

And honestly im good enough, im sweet and beautiful enough, im the perfect person for you and you know it...... You decided different.... You decided to be with somebody else.....

You decided to let me eat alive by all these wolfes......

At least the pain is eaten me alive too...,.

Im drinking again, trying to get over you, (dont want to blame you for this-i always a had a drinking problem, but its the only one way to get off this pain). (And of course you know that my monster inside is coming out if im drinkig - dependes on the provocation the person infront of me causes- good vibes - funny lovely monster- bad vibes -RUN and regret it).

If you really wanna talk, you know where to find me....

I would be glad and happy......

Once you were a big weight to carry, once you were the big deal in my heart i was denying for so long until i accepted it......

I love you, i love you, i love you I FUCKIG LOVE YOU!!!!!!!

im praying every day your coming back

But seems these will stay unheared from god.....

I regret all my mistakes, fucking regret all my ego, i regret all the missed chances, i regret the fear of facing my deep feelings for you........ I regret all the love i gave to the wrong people... You deserved it and anybody else.....

Pls forgive me....

But i did everything possible in the past, you didnt answer it, so it was clear to me, you just dont wanted me back again....

Im tired with this hide and seek and this unclear masseges from you (you know that im a bit autustic like dr. cooper)

Its not in my nature to read under the lines (i tryied and it endet more stupid than it already was)

Im a man! make just thing clear and simple pls.

You know how to find me.... Will alwaya be at my favourite bar where nobody knows me... Bcs you know i want to drink in peace ✌you would be the only one good damn companion to drink with.... I would be very happy!

I love you G. - always and forever!