My wife decided to take our sexual kink to the next level and i am leaving her.

Man Idk what I did to deserve this. I feel so weighty with the emotional baggage of this seperation.

In extremely few words, I am more of a sub and she is more of a dom. We both had a mutual kink related to flr and orgasm denial etc. We have been ok with such stuff for 6yrs. Last week(Friday) she went to her college reunion party and I was just playing something at home. It's agreed between us whatever happens except for emergency none of us are gonna be out after 12 at night. She didn't return till 1:00am and I was genuinely worried. She had gone their via our car. I called her repeatedly and even sent msg but she had last seen at 9:00pm ( an hour after she reached their). She came back at around 6:00 in the morning. She smelled food and wine. For context it was a dealbreaker for us to drink wine and related alcoholic beverages. And she was still drunk and I asked her what happened?

She told me she had sex with two men because she thought it would be a hot idea to make it a cuc1old relationship. I would NEVER EVER agree to such a thing. It wasn't even discussed ever in our life. I feel disgusted kind of. Later when she was somewhat in her senses, the first thing she does is try to convince me that it's a 'HOT AND KINKY IDEA'. I haven't divorced her yet I am at my sister's house. She only knows we had a heated argument. It feels totally shattering for me. I don't know how to recover from that. I have blocked her on everywhere except whatsapp, where she is constantly spamming.