This year Mother’s Day is about my husband

I’m about to go into a Mother’s Day brunch that my husband arranged, with the kids and in laws, and later dinner with just him and I. I was looking forward to today but because of what my dad did to me this morning, I now am spending the entire day suppressing my tears and pretending I am so happy with everything my husband arranged and how he and the kids (to an extent lol) are being extra nice to me so as to not disappoint them.

I woke up to nasty text messages from my dad because I needed to borrow money from him to help HIM out of a financial situation he put himself in (long story). It was an extremely rough week as I put these arrangements together. It’s Sunday and instead of waking up to either silence or a happy Mother’s Day wish from him, it was pure nastiness and abuse. He has a history of verbal abuse, and physical abuse when I was a kid.

I reminded him that it’s Mother’s Day and the kids were waiting to give me their card etc and he didn’t give a shit. The abuse over text continued.

So, as with what all women must go through, today is going to be about suppressing my emotions so that I can make everyone else happy and not ruin their day. Again I am put in last place. That’s all.