I finally give up

I already cleaned up my mess.
I’ve decided that it’s better for me to go. The pain is unbearable.
I was being emotionally abused, cheated on, got hit, gaslighted and now replaced.
The only person I trusted in this world is gone. I never was worth it.
I just wanted to let you all know that I really loved life once. But what happened will always stay with me. I will never be the same.
The love for him was the only thing that made me feel alive. Now it’s what’s killing me inside.