How do I get out of this?

I am 21F and I have been stuck in my house for about 3 years, I have no job and no real life friends. I have been trying desperately to find a job so I can begin planning my exit from the house I’m in or to even just have the money go to the hospital. I have had no luck finding a job, I can’t go far from my home since transportation isn’t really a thing I can’t afford and there is no public bus. I have no idea what to do, I’m so lost and I feel like I’m sinking in a ship where I don’t know what’s making it sink. I have begun to lose all hope and no so deep down I am hoping that the abscess in my mouth takes me out before anything else does. I’m too afraid to kill myself but if I die naturally well, that’s not my fault. I don’t want to die sometimes but I just can’t visualize a future right now. If anyone is in the same boat or had any tips, I’d really appreciate hearing them. I just don’t know what to do anymore.