I hate my body and I wish I was dead.

I've been training for a year now and now matter what I do I can't fix my anterior pelvic tilt. My limbs are incredibly strong but I can never seem to be able to work out my glutes, or lower abs. I look like a monster. My friends, co-workers, and family all tell me that im "attractive" they say shit like im "desirable" but it feels so far from the truth and im genuinely at the point where I wish I was fucking dead. I can't stand looking at myself in the mirror and I don't even want to go to the gym anymore. I've looked at countless YT videos. I've tried all sorts of advice. Still have a pooch belly.

I hate my fucking body, so, so much.

Sorry for the pity party. Im not in a good mental state right now. Whoever is reading this I hope you're having a nice day.