am i [21F] overreacting about my [19M] bf not texting me?

so obviously we know what today is and every mothers day, fathers day, any holiday i basically don’t do well on these days.. my self harm/i don’t wanna exist anymore thoughts are at an all time high so i just want a little comfort from my bf… last year i kinda got mad and brought up to him that he never asked if i was okay and he said he was very sorry and he should’ve been there for me and he sounded very sincere and such but this year rolls around and the same thing happened again:(

so currently i just feel like my emotions are so extreme right now… i feel like breaking up with him i feel like being angry i just feel so much because of what this day brings up:(

anyway i’m asking because he’s usually the perfect bf like he is very calming for me and he’s attentive and he knows how to help my panic attacks but he didnt say anything like ask “are you doing okay?” (he usually does) and he didn’t either on christmas and only called at midnight (after xmas was over) because he said he was busy w family so i figured that’s the case today but yeah he knows i dont do well and he couldve called for even like 5 mins i feel… but he didn’t:/

i brought up the christmas thing too when it happened and he apologized and said he should’ve spent more time with me but after today i just feel like giving up on explaining to him cause this is the third time and i just need a little comfort on these days😓 is that being too needy?? am i being reasonable:(?? idk