i broke 8 months of no contact

we were together 2 years, the second year things went downhill, i was busy with nursing school though i did my best to see her every week, she dealt with depression untreated and she nearly broke it off three times due to bad coping mechanisms. The final time was my last straw and I ended it the next day after she reversed her decision to end it. That was in October.

8 months of no contact, I made new friends, picked up new hobbies, did some traveling, im about to graduate nursing school and the day of my graduation photos, i called her that night, this last friday. I had a mix of emotions, she supported me before i started my nursing program, thru most of it and is not present anymore.

I was also triggered to call her because i saw her post a selfie that got a couple thousand likes. I dont know why i randomly decided to check her socials. The call went ok, she apologized for all the push pull dynamic she put me through especially towards the end, but i didnt recognize her or her voice. I apologized for my studies taking up a lot of time, and im sure i made some mistakes too.

She seemed so different and im pretty sure it was clear she was over it by now, she opened up the opportunity to maybe meet at a cafe sometime as friends but i dont know if im open to it. She said that she struggled the month i ended it but then it went out of sight out of mind pretty quickly after, shes fearful avoidant. I know we are different paths, im in the medical field and she has no real goals or career theyre working towards, but it just sucks.

I dont feel better nor do i feel worse, but i think the call made me miss her more. I dont know what to do…