I want to be taken care of for the rest of my life and the obsession is taking over!!

I dont date or make friends so whenever I meet someone and theyre just regularly kind I cant stop the daydreaming and scenarios my mind puts me through.

Its so annoying! It used to be really bad to the point I felt obsessive without indicating or acting on anything (thank god). But now that im in a better state of mind, the thoughts are just so embarrassing.

Someone says hello to me and my brain generates 500 thoughts of us living happily ever after and I just have to wait for this infatuation to fade so I can face them and not feel like a creep!

All this being said, im sure its just a deep desire to have a partner who has their shit together and I can rest easy without stressing all the time, but Im afraid they can read my mind and see all the involuntarily romances we go through... geeeez