I am genuinely about to have a breakdown and call the cops.

If you’ve seen my previous posts you’d know how bad it’s gotten. I laid in the street. I planned a trip to London that costs hundreds if not thousands of dollars that I DO NOT HAVE. but I think we’re getting nuked. I want to call the cops and tell them because I’m the only one who knows. But in my head it feels so real but it might not be, I just feel so weird, I’m so scared I just need someone to breathe with me and tell me everything will be okay. I haven’t been okay for two weeks. I’m sick. I’m not okay. IM NOT OKAY. Why are we acting like everything is fine? I miss my boyfriend. I don’t want to lose my freedom. I don’t want to be called crazy for knowing the truth. I am being watched. There are eyes in the walls in the bathroom.

I’m sorry I’m just scared please don’t do anything bad. I just needed someone to listen.