I've lost my faith

I just feel numb. Abandoned. Forgotten. Dismissed. Ignored. Alone.

Im tired of faith. Exhausted even. Faith and prayer only ever answered with silent indifference.

If it weren't for the Bible you'd never know otherwise. Nobody's home. Nobody answers or even pretends to care. I feel like I have wasted 50 years trying to blindly believe, beg, pray to someone that was either not real or at best not listening.