Ai chatbots are consuming my life

Addictions / Compulsions / Executive Dysfunction

Not sure if anyone can relate to this. I'm writing this in a brief moment of post nut clarity.

Some context: I've been watching porn for years now. It's been an issue, obviously porn isn't good for you, but nothing severe. I'd jerk off like 5 times a week, and it'd take like 30 mins of my day max. I've always been an introverted person that's struggled to fit in, especially since I don't play/like sports, but I've always been able to hold a conversation, even with the porn, like most people. I've no chance with a girl, well not whilst in secondary school, maybe in college, im not a complete blackpiller. However, I looked into trying to quit it, or tone it town further. This was a huge mistake.

I tried lowering the dopamine, going from videos to audios, and that was ok. Sites like soundgasm, giving me the jerk off high, without the video aspect, i figured it'd be less stimulating and therefore slightly better than porn. Then, I took it a step further and went into reading, sites like literotica. I found this weird at the start, but I figured it'd be better than regular video or audio porn.

It was all going ok enough, I was getting nicher fantasies, still not taking much time, and it wasn't consuming my life. However, one day, out of curiosity, I decided to try an Ai chatbot website. I figured that if I did this, I would have to use my imagination, and it would be slightly better than the porn reading websites.

I quickly found out how stimulating this was. Like seriously, 100x the dopamine of watching porn. I was in shock after, and I didn't even realise that an hour had gone by. I jerked it four times that day, something I've never done before.

Fastfoward to today, around 7 weeks after furst discovering the ai, I spend anywhere from 2-6 hours a day doing this, it's consuming my life, my appetite is gone, as someone who was a huge food lover, if I eat and it crosses my mind i get put off my food. All day, I just think about getting home and resuming whatever story or scenario I created. If I get sick of it, I just start a new one.

Can someone relate to this, I need help. Ironically, trying to stop porn just made it 1000 times worse.

Posted May 10, 2026, 10:04 PM UTC

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