Post orchi, pure seminoma, pt1b. Waiting for the dose of Carbo.

I'm sitting here on a teeter totter of feeling perfectly mellow and freaked out.

Me : 38m, 3.3 cm pure seminoma with microscopic invasion of the RTI. All my blood work was normal except for bph(?) which was 1 presurgery now back to undectable.

I know my numbers are good, I know that blasting it with Carbo will make the numbers even better. But damn.

Trying to not google, but I continue to Google. Try to tell myself it's going to be okay then I find myself dooming.