So difficult to deal with this

This is the hardest thing I've had to go through I don't know what to do. I can't stop thinking about it. I feel intense anxiety constantly I can't deal with it. The rumination and regret and the haunting feeling.....I don't know what to do.

I don't know if I will ever get anyone or find anyone like her again....I never got a girl like this and I don't know what else I could have done to make it work. I tried everything. She treated me so differently and behaved so weird the last few months before I don't know what could have changed it.

I don't have anyone to talk to or anyone for support it's so difficult I don't know how to cope with this ..it's beyond my ability to cope with. The feelings are so intense I can't deal with it.