On the Subject of Finding Someone

I see on here that many of us with this diagnosis and condition actually and actively seem to have found someone, that is, found themselves in a relationship with another person, be they people with a similar condition, or people without.

Well, first off, kudos to you people! Certainly, props are in order for those who can be with someone.

In the movie "The Departed", the character played by Alec Baldwin tells the character played by Matt Damon that being married is good because, "It tells people you're not homosexual, and it shows that at least somebody can stand the bastard!!" That scene lives in my head rent-free.

However, it is true in my own life, that nobody can stand me!! But, you know, I'm not bitter.

I used to think I would find someone. I'd often go to the town and "people-watch", and in a sense I would long for someone to approach me, or for me to find the courage to approach someone else. Sigh!!

Unfortunately for me, by the ripe old age of forty seven, that piece of good fortune has not found me.

But I'm not bitter.

Because when I look back on my life, and I look at all the stupid things I've done - the violent things, the sexually questionable things - and when I look at the way I choose to behave and think, and the things I say and believe...

...No wonder I'm alone!!!

But I feel I have made peace with it.

In fact, I am in a relationship... I have a relationship with God.

And true schizophrenic form, I have learned to communicate with Him, to converse and discuss and talk, argue, and all these good things.

So...

For those of us who think you'll never find someone... it's totally fine.

It's totally fine, man. God loves you.

Jesus loves you. It's fine, man.

Peace x