After 6 years, I got revenge on my bullies…and I regret it

Hi,

in 2020 I was in a complete new class as I failed my first year of high school. And in my new class, only new mates.

First month, everything was fine with that group of three persons. A kind gesture of them, they even proposed to launch with them (I couldn’t I needed to get back home)z

whatever, I never really knew why days after days the group started to change with me.

I was my class representative, first speech (first month) no issues at all, 100% normal. second speech I clearly remark the difference: everyone else clapped their hands, they didn’t. They even criticized me in front of everyone « You are doing badly your job » (give arguments please?) « You shouldn’t me the representative».

Things get gradually, suddenly every times I asked questions, they would sigh or make snide remarks: “Listen,” “She’s said that before.”

Once, after class ended, when everyone leaved, I asked to one of them « Is everything ok, did I do something wrong? » 

The person responded « No, nothing. stop asking weird questions »

And the part which drove to revenge is…after years, I learned that these persons said bullshit on my back to others classmates so they avoid me, I wasn’t in touch with that at the moment.

It did happen in 2020, I learned in 2024. I was furious, despite it was 4 years and I simply forget everyone.

At first, I try to forget…without success. Difficult to talk, to who? my previous classmates are gone, these 3 persons aren’t around anymore but the anger remains.

I start to think, and forget, and think. I tried to find these instagrams, private obviously.

For two years, I wanted to find them, then I forgot them, then I rethink them.

Two weeks ago, I saw a post from my own uni where there will be a presentation to raise awareness of a climate-related issue.

guess who were in the Instagram Post of it ?

one of these 3 persons.

It was my time. I waited it for so long.

First, I’m heading to the place where her presentation is taking place.

Arrived, I first listened, stressed as almost never was.

Then the moment comes when her presentation is over, everyone goes up to her to ask questions. I get in the back of the queue.

No one knew at that moment what I was about to do, not even me.

Finally…my round.

The person directly recognized :

- "My name" ??!!!! You grew up, you have beautiful grooming face.

- "Her name", your presentation was as good as your memory!

- "She laughed" we almost started off to get along.

She continues :

"You worried about climate issues now? What a great thing"

- "I do care indeed. but I’m not here for it"

- "Well…for what then?"

- "I’m here to see you"

- "That’s sweet…"

 - "That ain’t sweet, I’m here because you were disrepect as h*ll when we were classmates« 

-"I don’t get whats wrong "my name" ?"

-"What’s wrong ? WHAT’S WRONG??? So you destroy someone’s year and you don’t even the hurt you do, such a f*cking ***** you are!!!"

I shouted at her as I never did, I insulted her a bit (no happy about that of course) then the security guard asked me to leave out.

No news about until last week, until I can across the security and had a discussion with him

- Sorry about last week dude…

- You made her cried, I suggested her to denounce to the university but she denied, she said if it did help you to feel better nowadays, so.

The moment I realized I hurt her, I didn’t feel healed, I felt like a monster, I felt like I did something which wasn’t the real me.

I regret a bit…