i have given up on all this completely

i have basically nowhere left I can vent in. I have completely lost hope in it ever getting better and maybe it should stay that way. The only thing there's left is to end it all and that's it. If I keep going it's only going to get even worse from here. I'm beyond exhausted. I just wish I could live, I wish I could transition, I wish I could be who I am, but that's never going to happen. I can't take the pain anymore, I might not want to die but it's the only choice I have left. It was a run for sure but never a good one. Bye for good this time. Hopefully.