Dad admitted that he knew he was gay before he married to my mom.

I really wish I hadn't been born sometimes. Everyone in church thinks I'm sweet and can't understand why I'm not married. But wait, until my fellow church members (Pentecostal) ever find out my dad is gay, and 9 out of 10 times I'm attracted to gay men... I'm even dubious of the Christian men I'm attracted to. It's really very hard to forgive him at this point. It should be illegal to go into a fraudulent marriage like this. He never wanted to be a dad in the first place, and look how my brother and sister turned out. Autism and schizophrenia. You would not believe the shit I had to deal with growing up. And where was he? always out with "friends" He made my life infinitely more difficult than it should be. My mother worked from 6am -6pm every single day. What little time she had left over was dedicated to my brother and sister. If I ever get money, he will rue the day he was ever born.... I know it's wrong, but right now this is the only thing that makes me happy.