I haven't talked to anyone in years

I don't even know where or how to start. Whenever I try to have small talk online it annoys me and lead to nothing. I used to be extremely pro active, on the clingy side, and got rejected and bullied for it. Now I'm completely apathetic, I have no energy and don't want to try. I've lot touch with people. Thank god I still have some family I talk to but I still wanted to lead a normal social life...

I never had any friend or relationship, and now that I'm getting close to being 30 I know I won't have any in my life. Too late for that when you have 0 experience. Any teenager has more social experience and intelligence than I do. Damn