Is it normal to have body dysmorphia but not in a trans way?

Don't get me wrong, nothing against trans people, more power to them, it's just...

I'd like to be more feminine, but keep the parts that otherwise make me a man, like borderline.

I think.. I just hate myself, or at least hate my body, ideally I'd be a Femboy but as time goes on and the time windows comes closer to closing I feel like I may have to resign myself to a bear body type.

Nothing against bears, it's just not my type.

I wanna be thinner :<