I got scammed with a large amount of money (15k)

I have been crying so hard since last night and gone through a panic attack. I was scammed with 15k by a resort transaction online (through facebook). Alam ko kasalanan ko kasi hindi ako nagbasa nang mabuti kung legit ba yung account. The funny thing is I keep reminding my family abt not easily believing online transactions but ironically, ako pa yung nadale. Up to this point, hindi ko sinasabi sa family ko na na-scam ako kasi nahihiya ako. Para sa kanila yung treat na yun actually. And I feel like I let them down because of this.

Bobong-bobo ako sa sarili ko. I came to a point na sinasaktan ko yung sarili ko kasi pakiramdam ko napakatanga ko at deserve ko saktan sarili ko dahil sa ginawa ko, like that’s the least I could do.

Akala ko ba matalino ako? Pero bakit ako naniwala?

My boyfriend kept reminding me na walang galit sa akin at hindi ko naman sinasadya. And that I need to let go of the anger I have about myself.

Pero hindi ko mapigilan. Galit na galit ako sa sarili ko. Sobrang tanga ko.