Sorry we can't be just friends

It's quite a quandary I find myself in. I need you in my life or else your absence makes it feel incomplete. However, I've realized that, if you are to be in my life, I need all of you. Your bad days, philosophical discussions, your fire. I can't share or else my body rejects your presence like a virus.

You're not a virus though, so there's no cure to be found. I've looked for two years at this point in vain. Idk, can you just be my girlfriend. Can you be mine and only mine in every way possible? That would be super cool. Thanks