I want to get closer to Jesus than ever before and stay there.

I’ve been having difficulties on my walk with the lord. Some info abt me I’m 24M and I really just want to get closer to Jesus than ever before and stay there (as the title says lol)

It’s been a struggle for me especially this year as I’ve been cycling back to old stupid habits and sins and I really wanna just give it all to him and just grow and rest in him for as long as I shall live.
I want to learn to trust in God more and hold his hand when he reaches out… asking me to trust him… I want to get deep into his word and just dwell in the spirit all day long… as much as I can. I just want to live as a true Christian which is why I came here.

Would love some advice.. guidance… leads… anything helps lol! Just looking for some support and guidance that’s all 😅