addiction is weird (a poem)

Addiction is weird 
You use to numb 
You use to stay 
You use to feel
Addiction is weird
One moment your on top  
Not a care in the world
The next you're wishing you weren't here
Not a reason to keep going in sight
And sometimes your not feeling at all
Not happy 
Not sad
Just there
But maybe that's the point
To not feel that excruciating pain of a heartbreak
A loss 
Or even your own feelings
Addiction is weird because its used to escape
You end up trapped for longer than intended
Your stuck in a loop
One more line
One more shot
One more hit
More times than not 
Your one more this 
Or one more that
It turns into i cant stop
Addiction is weird because it hurts more than the thing you were escaping
The thing you used to get away
Is now the thing your trying to escape
But its not as easy as starting in the first place