Am I Just Not Appreciative?

Please help me to think this through. I do not know if what I feel is valid or I am just having too much expectations.

I’ve been recently married, and we dated for more than a year. I know my husband too well, since he is pretty direct on what he truly is ever since day one. He is funny, consistent, hardworking, and a responsible person. I love him so much, he is the most independent person I know.

Having known him since day one, I also know he is not really a romantic. I could remember each of the gentleman gestures he did to me because it was not really much. I’ve never received any heartfelt letter from him. Whenever we eat, I always make sure that I make him a plate, but he doesn’t even put my plate on the table when he takes his plate from the countertop. I remember crying myself to sleep but he just slept peacefully throughout the night, and did not ask me how I was the next morning. I remember that we had a plan with his brother, but I couldn’t go at the last minute since I did not feel well. I thought he would stay with me, but he went anyway. I remember him not asking my family for my hand, in formality of marrying me. I remember him playing for hours almost everyday but not spending or planning a quality time with me. I remember just staying at home after our wedding, he did not plan anything special for the honeymoon. Also, I remember the day I wanted to play a game with him (because I felt so alone for how many days since I moved in with him after getting married) but he refused and told me that he just want to relax on the couch, he had everything planned for himself that day, and just wants to play games on the tv.

Do I really sound stupid about this? Because I thought I would be experiencing a kind of love that is very caring and considerate. Small kind gestures are really a big deal to me. If you asked me why I did not break up with him before getting married, it is because I love him. I know from the start that he is not the one I am longing for, but I cannot let go of him because I really do love him, so much. It just really hurts me everyday that my little expectations are not being met most of the time.

Feel free to judge me. I need it.