Where are You?

Where are You? The agony ive been feeling for so long doesnt change and when I finally think im getting a break from all the incredibly messed up things that keep happening in my life, it gets ripped from my hands.

I try to put my faith in Him. Talk to him. Confide in him. But I feel like im talking to a wall. Where are You? Im exhausted and im losing the energy. I already feel alone and the one thats supposed to be by my side forever is also making me feel incredibly alone. Where are You...? I need You. I dont want to be in this much pain anymore. Please.