I might love cock after all

I have been away from home for college for the last three years and I might be in love with cock.
I left my parent’s home when i was 18, and moved to the city, I experienced freedom like never before. Since then I have had the freedom to explore who I really am.
Like most of you, sissies, I have been in this cycle of constantly quitting and coming back. I even got a girlfriend so my parents wouldn’t suspect.
In the past I have downloaded Grindr and even met with a man who fucked me, but I eventually delete all my accounts and go back to my “normal “ life
For the longest time I have tried to deny this part of me. But I am finally ready to embrace my sissy desires and go all in for cock, or rather let cock go all in in me. I just texted my girlfriend, I’m dumping her and living like the sissy I was ment to be. Send me encouragement.
There are some thing I need to constantly remind myself, if I ever forget, help me remind myself these facts:
-I like to suck cock
-no woman has ever ir will ever give the pleasure that sucking cock gives me
-I am made to suck cock
-I am inferior to other men
-I don’t deserve pussy
-my only worth comes from sucking men who are better than me
-I am a whore
-I am a sissy
-my body was made to take cock

If I ever forget, tell me I’m a sissy whore