It took everything

I’m gonna start this off by saying I’m 18 and about to graduate high school. I am or was a multi sport athlete I played Volleyball and Basketball. I got Diagnosed with a Genetic Disorder in December of 2025. It has ruined everything it took my senior year of sports and clubs , and all my friends are active playing pick up basketball, football, and even just walking around is extremely hard. I’m not me anymore I played instruments and I can’t even do that anymore without my knuckles swelling everything I enjoyed just hurts now being me hurts now I hate this I hate myself. I hate living with this and I talk to a therapist and I started anti depressants. I just I don’t even know what to do with myself anymore just feels so disconnected from my spirit my friends everything I enjoyed is gone I was supposed to play in college it just feels like a distant dream and it was just 6 months ago.