What are the chances?

After wasting many hours here yet again ... because I'm delusional.

I came through a post that might have been meant for you.

It's too distinct too precise to be a coincidence.

I even thought it might be you in disguise trying to lure people in to contact you.

The weird thing is I was just searching for letters addressed to my initial.

The letter itself is not addressed to my initial so I have no idea why it appeared to me.....

It's so bizzare ... but if it was you. It revealed something you never shared to me.

I prayed to God today to make me forget you.

I know you are not good for me. You are not good for me. You as you are now.

I also never mattered to you and these days, more than ever proved how much I never mattered to you.

Still you would come to my mind like an intrusive thought. Like a plague honestly.

Either it's you... or you are not really a minority in what you are ... or what you are into lol

I even wondered if I should message the person.

It wouldn't be such a big revelation. Minus you being a parent part lol

But maybe this is the clarity my mind needs. To look into your world up close. And how many broken hearts you left behind.

If it was intended for you. It wouldn't be the first time I stumble on a post about you.

That one I'm really sure it was about you. From your ex spouse. I still remember it. We were still in contact back then. I never brought this up, because I felt like your ex deserved their privacy. Looking back it felt like a sign. I empathize with your ex a lot and wish this person is in a much better place.

You admitted once that you are tired of hurting people.

You never seemed like a malicious person. I always believed that at your core, you had a very pure heart but this world tries to corrupt us. You were too lonely... to secluded not to fall in this trap.

I never made it a secret that I don't think you are on the right path.

I'm very lonely too btw. We are very alike you and I. Yet different at the same time.

Yes I prayed that God would remove you from my mind. But I also prayed for you.

I know I said I would do so as long as I remember you, but I no longer want to.

I wonder if the recurrent thoughts of you is because you are thinking of me..

I mean it did happen before. You kept writing to me hoping I would sense it and it worked. It took me a while to realize how very unkind it was of you to do that, when you never really wanted me. Didn't you realize I was too physically ill for such mind games?

Your loneliness blinded you. And mine blinded me and put you on a pedestal.

Anyway...

Be happy. Be well. And please be gone.