AIO bf’s car got towed and we can’t get it back.

hi :) gonna be a doozy of a post and i’m tired so bear with me. i request a judgement free zone if possible i just dont know if im being crazy or not

to preface, ive been in a relationship with my boyfriend for a little over four years. during this time he has been the sole driver/car owner as i dont have a license or car. my parents divorced when i was around 15-16 prompting my mom and i to move away unexpectedly, finances were so tight we were almost evicted multiple times, like her and i couldn’t even afford AC for our shitty apartment. parents never taught me how to drive and ive never had the funds for a car since. ANYWAYS. around a week ago my boyfriend’s car unfortunately had to get towed and the expenses are way too much (literally increasing by the day), like even if we both pooled money to get the car back we couldn’t even scrape how much the towing lot wants for it. he just started a new job after his previous one shut down suddenly and now we’re back at square one. unfortunately i think it’s time we just accept that the car will not be back in his possession. i am devastated about this.

this is why im wondering if i am overreacting or not. every day since this has happened ive been crying my eyes out. i am able to get around via rideshare or public transit rn, however my town and his aren’t super walkable. if i knew the last few times we hung out or went on long drives together on our own terms would’ve been the last few times for a while, i would’ve savored them more. my home life isn’t great and the ability to just escape by having my bf come rescue me was so helpful for my mental health. i’m so sad that all of the fun activities we were planning are now cancelled indefinitely. even just a quick trip to the store or drive to my work in the morning with him instead of a random uber driver was SO fun. now we have to meticulously plan every hang out and consider times and costs of ubers. we can’t look forward to seeing each other after a hard day at work anymore. no dates, weekend getaways, grocery store trips where we mess around and laugh at the random shit they have. i am not trying to come across as spoiled or anything. idk i guess i really did not grasp how much of a privilege the car was.. i just am grieving how normal and functional our relationship was for four years up until now. i truly have no idea how or when he will be able to afford another car. i feel so hopeless and defeated, not to mention extremely guilty that because i have no license or car there’s absolutely nothing i can do to help. now i’m mostly just at work or at home and the isolation is not helping.

thank you for reading if you have this far.

TLDR boyfriend and i no longer have our car we’ve been using for four years and im taking it extremely hard. overly emotional or nah??? lol