I let my brother give me a blowjob I am transgender

I do not think it will be the last time either. Me and him fooled around when we where younger and he admitted to me that he has always had a crush on me and now that I am out as trans and been transitioning for awhile he is even more attracted to me. I love him and wish I could spend the rest of my life with him but he is moving soon and I can not go with him. It is tragic really he is the only person in my life who's ever cared about me and I am losing him. I wish I had a longterm relationship with someone as intimate as that but I unfortunately do not think that will happen. Anyway thanks for letting me share.