i don't know what to do with this semester anymore

I missed a quiz and activity in the same subject last night. There was a power outage but if i did it sooner, i could have been on time. I don't know how to message my prof since i already talked about a missed quiz to him before which he let me take and i had no valid reason then, just pretty much said i forgot but in a way that would make him feel guilty plus one time, my laptop was late for almost 4 minutes and i thought i still was not late but when i submitted my activity, it indicated a minute late which i also told him before and he reconsidered. Now if i tell him about this quiz again and the late activity, that would just be bullshit. I don't know why i keep sabotaging my life. It's like i don't even know how to live. I am 18 days late on a project that my prof has not called me out yet, prolly because she still has not checked that i submitted a locked empty file, i had tons of late projects on different subjects before, and i can't even keep track of what i need to do. I feel like whatever effort i try to save this semester would just end up in vain. I'm barely passing class, missed a few lecture attendances too and this online class mode is just not for me. I feel so bad for my parents that pay for my living expenses yet I'm not doing anything to save myself from drowning. I feel like I need to be squeezed? if that makes sense like i need a really really tight hug because something in my chest always feel tingly and browsing the internet or writing bullshit to escape from this feeling calms me down.