19f w/ bipolar2 & BPD

Hi i am 19F with bipolar 2 disorder and BPD. I really don't know how to treat it anymore. I was in and out of inpatient and residential facilities from 12-14 and tried what felt like every mental health medication under the sun. When I turned 18 I stopped taking medication and have been unmedicated since. I am in therapy weekly but no longer see a psychiatrist. I don't know how to help myself anymore medically wise. I don't want to live like this for the rest of my life but I also don't want to feel like a "zombie" or deal with other side effects like I have in the past. It feels like no medication works and i'm lost. I would appreciate some feedback from anyone else who shares similar diagnosis and what has helped them in the past. i just want to get better for myself and my family.