Ate my bf butt

Idk how to feel. So i was giving him head and like i was in between his legs to be more comfortable on the bed, and then he put my head to suck his balls and then slowly pushed my head down to his hole and idk how to explain but he raised himself up/scooted up so i could be more in his hole so he wasnt bent over at all. it was like he felt the feeling when i was sucking his balls and wanted to try it im not sure? but yeah i just kept doing it until he cummed on my face and then after he said he was embarrassed and was acting shy but i told him not to cause i honestly didnt mind i just didnt like how its hairy. and later at home i went on tiktok to search vids of other girls experience trying it and theres a few but the comments are a lot of other girls, even some giys saying its disgusting and if a guy lets you do that then hes gay or he sees very low of you?? but some say that means he trusts u or something? Guys? tell me what tf does that mean. i feel like he just felt my tongue going a little more down while i was licking his balls and he liked it so he pushed my head down bc i know that most boys G spots are in their ass. Idk if i will ever do it again and i feel ashamed as a woman😭