Im struggling with interpreting this for myself. Idk if im misinterpreting it.

Why does he do that? trying not to show his feelings, why does he control himself so much like running from me, not getting closer/ showing/ expressing his feelings. why does he do that?

and I got 2 of wands, 9 of wands reversed, 4 of pentacles, 10 of wands, the emperor, ace of wands, the death, king of swords reversed and under the deck the sun. this cards really shocked me, so specific, but its rlly hard to comprehend something when its for yourself. I have such a hard time and prefer reading for others

and after that I asked again, because I was left confused and asked “But what kind of control is he afraid of losing like control of what” king of swords 2 of wands, the world , 6 of wands, page of swords reversed, 7 of cups, 3 of cups, 10 of swords and under the deck the lovers.