I Can’t Stop Spying on My 37M Husband — and I Hate Myself for It ( I am 28F)

My husband shared his laptop password with me a while back because I needed it for something. But ever since that day, I haven’t been able to stop myself from going through it? searching, checking, basically spying on him every single day.

I hate that I do this. I know I don’t want to, but something in me just can’t stop. I love him deeply, and even if I imagined the worst,that he was cheating (which he isn’t), I don’t even want to be the one to discover it that way. I truly believe that if something like that were happening, it would come to light on its own eventually.

The thing is, I want him to change his password, but I can’t bring myself to ask him directly. I’m scared he’ll think I’m a stalker, or that I don’t trust him.
I’m exhausted. I’m wasting hours every day on this and I’m sick of it. How do I stop