I don’t think I can keep going

I’ve been so tired recently. I haven’t just been myself yk? I mean I don’t have many friends. So they wouldn’t care if I died. N my cats can’t process it so they just. Won’t know.
I’ve been getting high so often to just forget about life and the fact that all I’m gonna become is some fucking bum. I wanna be a tattoo artist but my art is kinda shit so I can’t do much with that. So I really think it’s just best for me to die yk? At least that’s what I think. I’m gonna do it, when I get home from my classes today