[M4F] Teasing and torturing a cucked creature

A lost creature here that simply doesn't understand its nature. Squirming all day long. Leaking away useless white water. Not even understanding what that is. Sometimes I'm sleeping and it feels so good down there, and I wake up just drenching myself. Wetting my little pajamas.

And I know about sex, at least watching it. It feels so good to see a real man fuck. It feels so good down there, not even touching myself. Hearing her moan on his superior cock. Seeing them cum together. It's intoxicating really. But I can't watch for too long without having another one of those wet accidents.

Just a drooling cuckolded creature really. Simply amazed when I see real men with their cocks buried deep inside wet and wanting pussies. Emptying their balls inside of them, with purpose.
Marking and conquering. While I just dribble out a weak mess in the corner, or the toilet, or some other debased setting.

I've found it so hard to navigate these waters alone. What it all means. How to control and balance myself. To be so completely cuckolded means to lose ones complete masculinity. And how to find a partner for that?

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Looking to have a little fun with some deep and depraved cuckolding themes. Preferring conversation over roleplaying. Best to everyone :).