I'm clean since 14 days ago, but i miss this so much...

I hate myself.

I think this is my record.

I'm 28, kissless virgin. I watch sissy hypno since i was 16 (more or less). Trying to quit since i was 18 but alwyas relapsed.

When i'm horny i wanna be a sexy girl but when i cum, i always wanna be a straight guy again.

I thought it would be easier at 14 days, but it's always difficult af.

I miss the stuff so much...

I'm going to the gym, reading, eating well and urges are always there.

Help me :(