My journey in NoFap so far

I relapsed on 28th February 2026 and since then it has been constant. For me porn was never the problem but masturbation. I used to be so good at this but now I am failing at my game since OCD started to take over my life.

6th December 2022-28th February 2026, I was so strong mentally but getting emotionally overloaded slowly. Then I Relapsed again on 1st May 2026. I relapsed again on Monday May 11 2026 two times within a span of 50 minutes.

Guilt and shame has to start taking places with me. In science, masturbation is not the problem but the aftermath destroys me in pieces.

Day 0 again.

I am spiritually tainted now and I am avoiding social connections, conversation with everyone especially girls, dance classes, singing because I feel like I tainted them all. I need a redemption arc.