I 19M meaning of love has changed a lot for me.unable to understand few things or cope up.

I 19M meaning of love has changed a lot for me.unable to understand few things or cope up.

I was attracted to a girl in my childhood she is in my school she changed school I reached same school different section but after few years I started liking other girl of my class love for her faded away then in 11th,12th the first girl she is in my class she messages me I don't like to her I don't know why because she arrogant everyone knows that her friend group is usually fails in exams.then 2nd girl we are chating online then now I don't feel attracted for also because I know we are not compatible.

Most important things I am unable to understand is i am happy that I don't have to be desperate and I can practical otherwise if someone like someone who is cheater then it's hell for them I treat love like record like it's just story need to be completed but now I don't care about that story to end perfectly.

I am unable to write what I am thinking I am confused I just don't how to explain all this.

Do you also face similar things or this works this way only