Want to quit my job

Told my boss yesterday that I’m considering resigning. On one hand it’s the most money I’ve ever made, but on the other hand it still barely covers my monthly expenses. The scheduled “raises” might keep up with inflation.

I have 3 degrees, but this government position doesn’t take experience, performance, or education into account. I’m bored to death roughly half the time and the working conditions are pretty awful even for neurotypical people.

Working full time makes me unable to do anything else and I’m missing so much time with my kids. I have a small business that used to be my sole income when I was married. But since my politician ex husband was able to get away with lying to the courts about my income so he didn’t have to pay as much child support, I was forced into getting a full time regular job.

It feels like life has always conspired against me or I just always make the wrong decision out of short sightedness. The job market has steadily gotten worse my entire life. I legit don’t understand how people are able to get good jobs. Like I watch people I know do it and am just totally clueless. I’ve been applying to everything since I got divorced and haven’t gotten anything better.

I want to make enough money to pay my bills without being bored to death and be able to spend time with my kids. I don’t know how to make my life not miserable. My plan is to try to make my small business profitable again, and maybe I’ll be able to survive. Or maybe I’ll just die of cancer and get it over with.