in desperate need of some guidance here

Im a 21 yo trans girl who wants needs to be denied. I want my clitty to be controlled and owned by someone else. I want to be either in chastity, edging, or ruining my orgasms. I want to be a good girl. I have the ring part of my cage on, I cant decide if i am going to lock up and go to bed or make myself cum, or ruin! I am also wearing a crotchrope I made out of chains. which is teasing my clit and even my little tight hole. I am very desperate and I want to cum.