Discouraged because a woman I was talking to ghosted me.

(i'm so high right now that this stream of consciousness typing might help)

For the sum of about 3 days, I shot my shot and actually received a response back. I had been single for several long years and generally do not reach out or attempt to slide into DMs like that; I just never really tried? I had resigned myself to just be lonely and single by choice but there was a glitch somewhere that day when I was compelled to shoot a message to her. We texted back and forth for a bit. It was very pleasant to receive that type of attention for the first time in a long time.

Then no more responses. I figured I got ghosted and it is truly a peculiar feeling that I don't believe I have enough words to describe. It definitely is not a good feeling. Naturally, I began thinking about what I could have said or done to have lost her interest. Like, I'm spiraling wondering if I had gotten out of bed a few minutes earlier that morning instead, would things have been different? Anyway, it is definitely a feeling to feel having been ghosted in this manner. I felt as if I was actually making progress with her.

Typing all this out is kinda pathetic, now that I read it back. Cathartic, but a wee bit funny as well.