It doesn't matter :3

Ive never actually gotten over any of my exes (except one), ive only kinda managed to not remember them as much. But sometimes I do remember them, and then the memories of 2 VERY traumatizing relationships Hits me again. Idk if ill ever get over these relationships, nor if i want to, bc honestly after 5 years of a lot of disassociation, my trauma is pretty much the only character I still have. And I kinda don't wanna get more boring then I already am. Idk if ill ever end up happy. Or if ill ever stop loving my exes...