To E

I know i cut you off for a reason that was rude, i know how you are therefore i know you aren’t having a problem moving on from me but try to understand where i am coming from the day before, we were talking about our future the dog u wanted, a doberman. and then you showed me by asking for money, that the plans for our future was closer to being a lullaby then reality, truthfully i’m not materialistic but i do know what im worth, and yes it gave me the ick, because you’ve also slept w other girls, blocked me to be w another girl and still loved ur ex and i stayed then on-top of it u ask for money so yes i don’t regret it, however i just wish i was enough for you to actually change,

Yet you were so inviting, i hated that obviously you weren’t so into me so you never asked questions about me however when you wanted to be you could be so warm eli, letting me ramble and express myself, i felt so safe like a flower blooming in the perfect weather, why WHY couldn’t you just do better, for us, for me. why was i objectified in your eyes, im not even sure what it was for you, but to me it was everything.