Woke Up From Almost A Year Long Depression Ep. Now I have more emotion than ever before.

Long story short was gradually getting worse and worse this year. Would recognize it but it just felt like a storm and static. Caused me to become a different person I never knew, nor thought I ever could be and I thought I was stuck as that person forever. Resulted in me losing a good long term relationship. Now I am more awake than ever and have gained a lot of weird emotional intelligence with it (not going to self proclaim but I just feel like I see it all now). Did reach out to give accountability, and apologizes. When I did, I realized how much of a bitter person they were, I never got anything from them and I just saw all the content they were liking slandering people that at one month before say they wanted to marry. How does that work, I’m just confused? Now I’m just caught in this weird whirlwind of anger, but empathy at the same time. It’s beautiful, but also weird.